Thoughts last night before bed.

As I lay in bed after saying goodnight to my daughter I am very grateful for the help and support from you all to stop my daily drinking. I love all that my 16yr old shares with me and retaining all she tells me is irreplaceable. I love tv watching after dinner with her and being fully engaged. I love my husband seems happier and he has called me “Jackie,Jacks” lately and I think it’s cute. I can tell he’s trying to show me he likes the change in me.

I have gone very long periods of time without drinking and then usually have a night where I drink, I am okay with that. However I think by having a few drinks on certain occasions makes it harder for me to not have them on certain occasions. Does that make sense? It’s like I gave my brain wiggle room and my brain knows that.

Anyway, just some thoughts before bed.

Much love to you all,

Jackie

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6 Responses to Thoughts last night before bed.

  1. clairei47 says:

    I totally understand that but I wish sometimes I could just have the occasional one or two. I know I’d never be able to stop it spiralling though and I would end up back to square one so I don’t even go there. It is good to be present with your children. I love that about sobriety xx

    • I think by having occasional nights where I allow myself to drink overall makes it harder to say no on other nights. I fight it and don’t drink but I made that fight in my brain harder due to the occasional drinks. ( If that makes sense. ) I am looking forward to the upcoming sober Holidays. Last year what really kicked everything off was when I completed “Dry January.”

  2. I’m the same Jackie. I know I’d start finding more special occasions…. like oooh it was sunny 😂

  3. gr8ful_collette says:

    Love this posts, and the little things you get to enjoy now. Yes, if my brain gets even a whiff of wiggle room it’s all over. Hugs to you. 💕

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