Worked so hard all day today. Just have been so frustrated with life. I get zero breaks! Bought a small bottle of vodka. ( eeep! ) After work took my youngest driving and we had a great time. Oldest went with. Husband was working late as usual. I drank some of that vodka after. ( about two drinks ) I cooked dinner in shifts and all seemed ok, until my husband came home. Apparently my youngest saw me grab from the bottle. All hell broke loose. Husband was such an ass!! Right in front of the kids. I mean I could call him out on shit the girls tell me!! Why can’t my girls come to ME first? Why can’t he private address this?? No, he thinks yelling in front of the children trumps him. They have no idea the stress I am under lately. So now my husband thinks it’s him and the kids against me. Well, after many tears and talks with my oldest we ended up hugging and she knows what I am going through and knows all I do for the family.
BUT I HAVE TO NEVER DRINK AGAIN! I promised her that tonight.
I just got the kick in the ass to OWN my fucking life! If anyone knows me, I will prevail.
Fuck alcohol. But also I am going to do whatever is best for my kids, only. They are my whole. I’m not letting alcohol be a way for anyone to use against me. ( even though I think they were unnecessary rough tonight. )
Thank you for reading. Life is so hard sometimes!!