I haven’t blogged in awhile. I’ve started them, but then thought they were so boring and no new revelations or amazing-ness. I’ve been daily stressed to the most I’ve been in a long time. My circumstances aren’t changeable at all right now either. I have to hope for the best and keep trying my best, even though it’s a tough road to travel sometimes.
I believe this stress/worry has caused the onset of eczema. ( I read it can. ) I’ve had it on my face for awhile. I cover it up daily. It has now popped up throughout my body and it is horrible to itch and hurt all day. I also have right constant arm pain daily, couple nights ago it went numb down to my fingertips, but I’m certain it’s due to my job. Hoping that goes away. I feel just “off” lately but I have no insurance to go to the doctor for any tests or blood work, it is all out of pocket. Oh yeah, and financially I can’t afford that either.
Yesterday was actually a good day. I got this eczema approved (CeraVe) bar soap, lotion and face wash. ( $25 that needed to go elsewhere. ) My facial redness decreased after my shower and my acidic acne that popped out this week looks better. I’m hoping all over the eczema will keep getting better now. My cold sore is getting much better too, about gone. I had a good night after work. I chatted happily with my husband. It was nice.
I have been thinking of alcohol a lot this week. Just can’t shake it. I drink when I’m cheery but mostly drink when stressed. I did not drink one drop, but man it is such a struggle this week! So annoying to deal with because I came close to giving in. I had every excuse run through my head it was a fine, justified idea.
……But I drove by that liquor store each time aft work and came home and will do that again today….
My goal in this was to not daily drink nor turn to alcohol to stress drink. Clearly It’s still a struggle. Good God this is taking forever.
Anywho, I am going to do my best to have a happy weekend after work today. I feel much better today! 😊 I only have to stop into work briefly Saturday so will basically have the weekend off. You all keep me inspired to keep going towards that light the end of this tunnel! Hope you all have a great weekend!!